On to the Next Thing… Berlin Marathon 2019

I’m about to start my Marathon Training for the 2019 Berlin Marathon! 

What are my thoughts? 

  • I’m incredibly nervous that I’m going to slack off and just not do any of the training. (I did slack off a little bit for my Chicago Marathon training last year. Instead of running a lot, I did yoga a lot! LOL Well, it gave me a profound experience with yoga and I enjoyed every bit of it anyways. But this year, I’m going to run more and do yoga and other cross-training I could think of.) 
  • I’m incredibly nervous about injuring myself. (My right leg hasn’t been itself since that one Pole fitness class and I’ve been trying to recover since. It’s getting better though.) 
  • I’m incredibly nervous about Florida weather! It’s so HOT outside already! (I just need to start running in the morning which means sleeping earlier and waking up earlier. I can do that. I just need to be more consistent.) 
  • Will I be more prepared this time around? (I do still have plenty of time. I really need to stop putting so much pressure on myself coz it makes me not want to do anything at all. Writing helps, as I am going thru the lists of my thoughts, it helps to narrow them down and have a more organized focus on things that I am worrying about. lol) 
  • Should I try to PR? (I should at least try, right?. I am in better shape now than when I started training for Chicago Marathon 2018. At least, I also know what I am getting myself into so I can be more prepared and ready.)
  • I want to enjoy this race and experience even more than I enjoyed Chicago. (I’ll prepare more travel planning. I really didn’t do any of that for Chicago. So we didn’t get to see the city for the beauty it was. I can’t wait. I’m going to see so many beautiful things in Berlin and I already feel myself wanting to stay or go back soon. I know I know! I haven’t even book my flight yet but if you know me well my excitement about beautiful places starts early and last a lifetime.) (Side Note: Italy is still my favorite, as of May 17, 2019) 
  • What should I eat? How should I healthily fuel my body for the many training and the actual marathon itself? (I really want to be more educated nutrition wise. I want to not depend so much on artificial things that are unhealthy and not necessary. I encountered a really nice podcast (https://jayshetty.me/dr-daniel-amen/) that talks about our brain! It really made me think of everything that I do and what I feed my body. Yes! Listen to that Podcast! It’s pretty cool. So after listening to that podcast, I’ve been very mindful about taking care of my brain, myself! One of the things it talks about is only doing things that is good for your brain and that includes eating healthy brain boosting foods! So yeah that’s one of the things I’ve been working on.)
  • So with that in mind, Should I stop drinking alcohol again this time around like I did for my Chicago Training?  Ha! I still have 2 bottles of wine that are super unopened! lol Maybe they will be the last ones I’ll drink. IDK. Alcohol is not good for your brain and I believe not drinking helped me with my training last year because I was able to keep my body super hydrated and on the weekends where I did drink some alcohol I ended up being lethargic for a whole week, making training a bit harder. So Yeah. I think I’m leaning towards not drinking again for this training. lol 

Anyways, these are just some of my thoughts before I start my Marathon Training next week. It’s going to be amazing and exciting and also very nerve wracking! Please wish me luck! I’m going to need plenty of positive vibes! 

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~ Yours Truly Yours, 

Piawia!  

 

 

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My First Solo Travel Venture: San Antonio, Texas, USA – Part 1

April 10, 2019

It’s been more than a week since my trip to San Antonio, Texas and I’m still at an awe to how much fun and how amazing it felt to do something/to experience something like that: a SOLO TRIP.

I originally planned this trip to witness the Jersey Retirement of my favorite basketball player of all time, Emanuel Ginobili, player of the beloved San Antonio Basketball Team, the Spurs.

As soon as they announced the event, I bought my game ticket and a week later, my plane ticket. It took me a while to actually book the hotel just because I got cold feet with the idea of doing or going somewhere alone but I had to, everything was already set!  

As I am on my way to the airport, I keep thinking, “I am actually doing this just to see a player retire his jersey. People are going to think I’m crazy.” But I came to the conclusion that I didn’t care, so the theme of my trip was: “I don’t care what people thought”. Everytime I got myself in a spot where I’m questioning doing something due to people’s opinions, I reminded myself that I didn’t care and it made my trip so much more enjoyable.

So, I took on the journey and went to San Antonio with an open mind.

I decided that my first stop would be the Japanese Tea Garden, right next to the zoo. I decided on taking the bus to get there. The bus stop at the airport was pretty easy to spot.  Two bus rides and I am at the garden but I realized that I was going to wait another 30 minutes for the second bus to arrive so I decided to just go for the walk. I stumbled upon Trinity University and roamed around campus for a bit then I stumbled upon the San Antonio Zoo. In the area is an open field with a little train track that actually comes from the zoo, pretty cool. The little zoo/garden are is a good running spot, I did see a couple of runners in that area too.

The Japanese Tea Garden took me by surprised. I didn’t realized how beautiful it was. I did some research and saw some photos beforehand but I did not think it was that beautiful. They have a little fall, so many flowers, plenty of fish in the ponds and some old structures around the area. There’s also some short trails that you could walk to that leads to the zoo. It was really short though and a some up hills that can be very tiring for Florida folks since we rarely have any inclines (lol I struggled a bit walking back).

After enjoying the relaxing scenery, I went and looked for some food. Thankfully, there was a BBQ place right next to the garden, Augies BBQ.  I ordered a Fried Brisket Sandwich (I think it was called Matador Sandwich). It was so yummy and all I wanted to do after eating (devouring that sandwich) was take a nap. So, I took an Uber (first time riding one alone) to my hotel, took a 3 hour nap and then went for a 2 mile walk/jog/run around the Downtown Riverwalk. It was challenging to find a route for that due to the crowd and of course not knowing exactly where I was but I made it work and ended up finding a spot in the Riverwalk that seemed to be less travelled that made me feel super adventurous (lol). I make myself sound like I don’t go out much but truthfully, I do, I just get overly excited about things (I think that makes me unique, lol).

After my run, I got ready for the game. I took the bus to go to the AT&T Center, which I loved. There is a sense of independence that I feel every time I take public transportations alone, living in Jacksonville, FL. we basically don’t really have access to public transportation. So taking the bus was a thing I am proud of. I don’t think anyone would ever understand that.  

The game was of course exhilaratingly fun. I enjoyed it very much even though I was alone. I got my “Gracias Manu” hat, my tissue (for the retirement ceremony) and a little poster thing that had Manu’s photos.

Although my seat was all the way to the top, it did not feel like I was watching ants play basketball. So my seat was high but I still felt like I was close enough to the players. I sat on the Spurs side, right in front of where Manu’s jersey was going to be hanged and retired. I also saw where Manu sat while watching the game (so close yet so far!). For the first half of the game, I was roaming around trying to take Manu photos at all the spots they had set up. All the championship trophies they won were right next to Manu’s backdrops. It was pretty cool. I was not able to take photos with all of them though but that’s ok. I was anxious to find a good souvenir and also to watch some of the game so I didn’t really feel like standing in the longer lines just to take photos with fake Manus.

The game was exciting. When I started watching it, it was the last couple of minutes of the 3rd quarter and the whole 4th quarter. It’s so exciting to be in a home game of your team. Mills scores a last minute 3 pointer that made the win for the Spurs apparent. He even said he did it for Manu, who really knows. The Spurs came a long way from where they were in the beginning of the season to where they are now. It’s kind of neat to witness their progress and actually seeing it in person. (They are going to the Playoff’s despite the odds not being in their favor in the beginning of the season, how amazing is that?)

The ceremony was to start after the game which kind of took me by surprised since the game was a late game. But it was fine, I just wanted to be there. The ceremony started 30 minutes after the game. I contemplated getting up and using the restroom, thankfully, I did! (Haha, just thought to put that out there.) The speeches were touching and I really thought I was going to cry but I didn’t. Manu is such an awesome player and he has great appreciation for his fans, colleagues and especially to his family. I admire that very much and I’m sure a lot of his fans do too.

After the game and ceremony, I set out to do another Uber venture. Share a Ride was set in Lot 5 of the Parking Lot which coming out from the doors by Row 125 will be on the far left, I mean far far left. I’ve been in that parking lot before but I still didn’t know where to go. I had to google it and follow some folks around to get to where they had pick ups set up. I think it was pretty organized but it still took my Uber awhile to get to me, maybe they could do better. I contemplated riding the bus back to my Hotel just because of how long it was taking for my Uber to reach me but who knows what was out there that late of the night, so I’m still glad I took Uber. Finally, my Uber ride got to me and I was able to get to my hotel safe and sound.

Well, that’s it for my 1st day in San Antonio. I decided to make this trip a two part blog. I was only there for two days but I have so much thoughts about my experiences that it became apparent to make it a two part blog!

I hope you enjoyed reading this blog as much as I enjoyed the actual trip and I hope this encourages you to go for one too, a SOLO TRIP!

Forgive, Forget & Love.

January 13, 2019

Today, I realized that I want to write about so many things. As I am starting to type I couldn’t think of putting all my thoughts into one passage. This weekend blessed me with a God Daughter, a 13.1 Mile Finish, a Bullseye, a Spotless Clean Car {for my Dad} & a moment with God I haven’t had in a while, all of which made me grateful for life itself!

 

In this blog, I want to write about my Dad. I’ve been meaning to write about this because this is so close to my heart. MY DAD HAD A STROKE. For the very first time in my life my actual fear happened. I always worried about my parents getting sick and worry about what I would do &  what would happen & then it happens. I was overwhelmed with worry & confusion.

With this incident, I learned a lot about myself and what it means to have a family. You see, not many people know this about me, I was losing faith in mine. The day before my Dad had the stroke, I was angry. Angry at the world for not having my back. I preached and I preached about believing in the Universe but yet I was angry with myself for not trusting that my family had my back. My anger and grudge towards my family caused me to distant myself from them for a while. Of course, they did not know this, it’s not their fault. It was something inside me, I know that my family was there deep inside but the surface part of me was so broken I couldn’t see it myself.  

When the stroke happened to my Dad all of my anger and resentments went away. None of those stupid things mattered. I am just happy he is here with us today. I feel like my family and I are much stronger now than ever.

When that happened so many doors opened up for me. My heart was healed and my mind was clearer: none of those things are more important than loving my family no matter what.

When that happened I realized how short life truly is. I realized how much could change in a day, in an hour, in a minute, in seconds.

When that happened I realized to be grateful for what I have, for what is, for what was and for what is there to come.

When that happened I realized how important it is to learn to love others unconditionally by learning to love myself unconditionally. A different view in life came to me telling me the right way to love someone {I have my Mom to thank for that}.

When that happened I was faced with the reality that I have been selfish.

When that happened I was face with the reality that no one is perfect and that everyone is just doing the best that they could.

When that happened I realized how much my family means the world to me.

When that happened I realized that I was so broken and inflicting all my wounds to my family.

There are many many more things I learned in just that one day. That one moment that changed my life. That one moment that made me want to cherish my time with my parents, to cherish moments of joy and laughter with my family. That one moment that made me realized that I had to heal for others. That one moment that changed my life is the moment I thought I could lose my FATHER. (He is ok, by the way)

“It takes us losing something, someone, ourselves or time to truly appreciate what we once took for granted. I don’t want loss to be the eye opening moment anymore. Why are we so blind to good things?” – Kyle Fasel

Learn to heal yourself instead of inflicting your pain onto others. Learn to heal yourself so that you may cherish the most important people in your life the right way. Learn to heal yourself so that you won’t have any regrets. Learn to heal yourself so that you may help others heal themselves. Learn to heal yourself because you are the only one that could.

My love for my family is an epitome of trust, acceptance (for what is) & forgiveness. Without them my world will never be the same.

 

FORGIVING OUR PARENTS, OUR FRIENDS, OURSELVES

“The holiest of all spots on earth is where an ancient hatred has become a present love.” – A Return to Love, Marianne Williamson.

As always, Thank you for taking a moment to read my thoughts.

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia.

Thankful For Him <3

February 4, 2019

How am I feeling today? I feel happy.

That’s it. That’s how today is, feeling happy (& tired actually lol I’ve been up for a while).

So today Karl and I made it official. We are together. We are going to see where this relationship will take us. We will take it day by day. I am so happy.

This week has been so wonderful to me. His visit here in Jax has brought so much joy into my life that I’ve never felt before (all I meant is it’s a different kind of joy, not that I never felt joy).

Reasons being? The whole time Karl was here I was myself………….. There was no doubt in my mind that I am comfortable being around him and that is such a wonderful feeling. We’ve talked about things I never even talked about to anyone. I wasn’t afraid to tell him things people used to call me crazy, desperate for……………….. HE just let me be. He let me be myself freely and that is as in my previous passages, is the most wonderful thing to gift someone.

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I want to remember each moment of this day… or the day leading up to this because it was just pass 12am or so when he asked me if we could make it official………….. That took me by surprise really…………………

It’s so sad sometimes to think that all these nice things that he’s doing for me was unexpected but it shouldn’t be unexpected, that is how things are supposed to be.

I was an hour late in our meet up plan because I was thinking he was going to be late or that he was stuck in his conference and was unable to let me know he was on his way……… You see, this is such a regular occurrence for me that I just grew accustomed to it (sadly)…. I’ve dated guys who made me wait 12 hours, I dated guys who nonchalantly tells me “oh sorry, I didn’t realized you were waiting.” I dated guys who just do their thing without regards to the time I spent waiting when I could have done something else…………… No total regards that my time is being wasted waiting for a text to tell me what’s going on…………………………. I learned to be chill in this moments of waiting…………………. And now I meet this guy who is punctual, who says what he means… He told me he would leave Miami by 12 and should be in Orlando by 3…. And silly silly me for thinking he’s going to text me when he leaves and let me know if he’s done with the conference……….. 2pm comes along no text…I’m still so Chill, “Aww he’s probably having a good time in the conference, but I’m ok here i’m spending time with D & D, maybe he doesn’t want to bother me either.” This mindset is kind of making me sad………….. Haha I am numb from people not respecting my time that that’s the kind of mindset I have while waiting on someone………… Karl actually didn’t realized that I was waiting for a text that he was coming because in his mind, I should have known he was on his way……………. Yes I know Him and I need to work on our communication but to be honest, there was nothing wrong with what he did. It was me………. I was so used to people taking my time for granted that that’s what I expected from him……………………………. It wasn’t until Destinie asked me if I was sure… that I should just text him and ask… so I did….. His response “Yes ETA 3PM” like we talked about………………… I was an hour away and was still at the restaurant…I’m just so touched and amused that this guy actually respected my time………….. He didn’t even go to the conference anymore coz he wouldn’t make it on time to meet me at 3pm………………………. Who does that? WHO FREAKIN DOES THAT? NO ONE EVER CARED TO MEET ME ON TIME IF THERE WAS SOMETHING ELSE THEY ARE DOING!!! NO ONE………………. That kind of person exist? That kind of person who thinks meeting me was important..……… HE put seeing me first before anything else……………………… & I was so used to people making me wait that I ended up making him wait………………………….. The whole 1 hour drive I had I was thinking of ways to apologize, my excuses… but I couldn’t come up with a good one. I couldn’t think of anything because he didn’t deserve that………………………….. I said sorry and he said “it’s okay, are you ready?” I set my things in our room and he hugs me. He hugs me so tightly as if all that mattered was that I was there, nothing else mattered………. There was no drama, no guilt tripping, no why what happened……….. He was just happy I was there………

This person exist? All I can think about was how can I repay him for all his kindness… all I can do is to appreciate him for who he is. To give thanks to all that he does……… to appreciate him…..

It makes me feel so sad writing this. I can’t believe that he’s so sweet and nice. That the kind of guy I used to dream about is here existing right before my eyes. We shared so many moments together in just those little times that we had, can you imagine having a lifetime of days like that? I want to believe that that kind of Love can exist for me for a lifetime…………. All I need to do is be grateful for each moments we have.. That’s it. Just need to be super grateful.

So as our afternoon continues, we go to see Orlando eye. I hug him as we walked…….. He offered his arms and I obliged whilst still hugging him. Haha I just couldn’t get enough about how freaking grateful I was!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT while in line to go to the Orlando Eye Ferris Wheel was “I LIKE THIS GUY so much” on repeat!

Well, as always, thank you so much for reading my thoughts. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Love always.

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia <3

 

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