The Amazing Mom That You Are!

Yeah! You!

You Amazing Mom

Who brought all of us into life.

You Amazing Mom

Who stood up for us when we couldn’t, YET!

You Amazing Mom

Who knew our pain when no one else did!

You Amazing Mom

Who stayed up with us to make sure we’re ok through the night

You Amazing Mom

Who gave up time for yourself to spend time with us.

You Amazing Mom

Who stands in front of us

No Rest

No Sleep

You stand here with a smile

Ready to face another battle of life with us.

We admire your unconditional love for us, your passion to keep us all alive!

To all the moms, new and old, soon-to-be’s and one day will be, you are amazing.

Thank you for all you do!

Special thanks to the moms in my life that inspires me and challenges me to be a better person.

Special thanks to my mom for showing me everyday what it means to unconditionally love someone.

Special thanks to my sister and sister-in-law for bringing so much joy in our lives.

(Belated) Happy Mother’s Day to all! (Better Late Than Never)

Thank you all for reading my thoughts!

~Always be kind and always choose love!~ 

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia!

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Aha Moment – 5.10.2019

Realizing that being mindful of the things I say is very important. 

Especially about the things that I say about myself. 

I am creating a safe place for myself [in my mind], where I can be myself always: no judgment & no shame just Trust & Love. 

This moment gave me the opportunity to change my views & to (work towards) loving myself more. An opportunity to create a world for myself where the Universe is not the only one that has my back but a world where I have my back too. 

 ~ Always Be Kind and Always Choose Love ~ 

Love Always,                                                                                                                                            Pia 

Some quotes for guidance into creating a world of love for yourself:

“Transformation starts with how we use our words – how we speak our story to others and ourselves.” – Heatherash Amara, Warrior Goddess Training 

“Be impeccable with your words.” – don Miguel, Four Agreements [faultless, flawless, guiltless]

“Any opinion not presented in Love should not be considered.” – Rachel Hollis, Girl, Stop Apologizing. [may it be from you or others]

“What comes out of your mouth comes into your life, so choose your words wisely.” – Jen Sincero, You Are A Badass Everyday

“There is no more powerful motivation than to feel we’re being used in the creation of a world where love has healed all wounds.” – Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love 

Positive Vibes Wednesday – 4.17.2019

I’d like to start your Wednesday with some positivism! I intend to post more positive things each week or so! 

So, here is a lovely poem, empowering women to see themselves as the wonderful phenomenal women that we are! 

Phenomenal Woman 

by Maya Angelou 

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I’m not cute or built to suit a fashion model’s size   
But when I start to tell them,
They think I’m telling lies.
I say,
It’s in the reach of my arms,
The span of my hips,   
The stride of my step,   
The curl of my lips.   
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,   
That’s me.
I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,   
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.   
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.   
I say,
It’s the fire in my eyes,   
And the flash of my teeth,   
The swing in my waist,   
And the joy in my feet.   
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.
Men themselves have wondered   
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can’t touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them,   
They say they still can’t see.   
I say,
It’s in the arch of my back,   
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.
Now you understand
Just why my head’s not bowed.   
I don’t shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.   
When you see me passing,
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It’s in the click of my heels,   
The bend of my hair,   
the palm of my hand,   
The need for my care.   
’Cause I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.

What a wonderful day it is to be a woman! Yesterday, on my way home from work, I was listening to Oprah’s Super Soul Podcast and I ran into this one with her reading Maya Angelou’s poem. In her podcast, she reminds us to be ourselves. She reminds us that our sole goal in life is to be the best selves we can ever be! It’s funny because the chapter in the book I was reading (Girl Stop Apologizing by Rachel Hollis) said the same thing! What a coincidence?! Both Oprah’s podcast and Rachel’s book remind us that our job, especially as women, is to be ourselves, to stop asking for permission to be ourselves, to be true to ourselves. The people who are truly meant to stay and matter in our lives will love us despite them not understanding, despite them not agreeing. Even if you change, the people who truly matter should be the people who will love you for exactly who you are! 

So this is my positive vibes Wednesday! I hope you get inspired and motivated today to be who you truly are. Just be yourself! Be the bravey you want to see in the world! 

Happy Happy Wednesday! ‘Til Next Time! 

Yours Truly Yours, 

Piawia! 

<3

Notes:

  • Phenomenal Woman Poem by Maya Angelou
  • Super Soul Podcast with Oprah Winfrey
  • Girl Stop Apologizing by Rachel Hollis

My First Solo Travel Venture: San Antonio, Texas, USA – Part 1

April 10, 2019

It’s been more than a week since my trip to San Antonio, Texas and I’m still at an awe to how much fun and how amazing it felt to do something/to experience something like that: a SOLO TRIP.

I originally planned this trip to witness the Jersey Retirement of my favorite basketball player of all time, Emanuel Ginobili, player of the beloved San Antonio Basketball Team, the Spurs.

As soon as they announced the event, I bought my game ticket and a week later, my plane ticket. It took me a while to actually book the hotel just because I got cold feet with the idea of doing or going somewhere alone but I had to, everything was already set!  

As I am on my way to the airport, I keep thinking, “I am actually doing this just to see a player retire his jersey. People are going to think I’m crazy.” But I came to the conclusion that I didn’t care, so the theme of my trip was: “I don’t care what people thought”. Everytime I got myself in a spot where I’m questioning doing something due to people’s opinions, I reminded myself that I didn’t care and it made my trip so much more enjoyable.

So, I took on the journey and went to San Antonio with an open mind.

I decided that my first stop would be the Japanese Tea Garden, right next to the zoo. I decided on taking the bus to get there. The bus stop at the airport was pretty easy to spot.  Two bus rides and I am at the garden but I realized that I was going to wait another 30 minutes for the second bus to arrive so I decided to just go for the walk. I stumbled upon Trinity University and roamed around campus for a bit then I stumbled upon the San Antonio Zoo. In the area is an open field with a little train track that actually comes from the zoo, pretty cool. The little zoo/garden are is a good running spot, I did see a couple of runners in that area too.

The Japanese Tea Garden took me by surprised. I didn’t realized how beautiful it was. I did some research and saw some photos beforehand but I did not think it was that beautiful. They have a little fall, so many flowers, plenty of fish in the ponds and some old structures around the area. There’s also some short trails that you could walk to that leads to the zoo. It was really short though and a some up hills that can be very tiring for Florida folks since we rarely have any inclines (lol I struggled a bit walking back).

After enjoying the relaxing scenery, I went and looked for some food. Thankfully, there was a BBQ place right next to the garden, Augies BBQ.  I ordered a Fried Brisket Sandwich (I think it was called Matador Sandwich). It was so yummy and all I wanted to do after eating (devouring that sandwich) was take a nap. So, I took an Uber (first time riding one alone) to my hotel, took a 3 hour nap and then went for a 2 mile walk/jog/run around the Downtown Riverwalk. It was challenging to find a route for that due to the crowd and of course not knowing exactly where I was but I made it work and ended up finding a spot in the Riverwalk that seemed to be less travelled that made me feel super adventurous (lol). I make myself sound like I don’t go out much but truthfully, I do, I just get overly excited about things (I think that makes me unique, lol).

After my run, I got ready for the game. I took the bus to go to the AT&T Center, which I loved. There is a sense of independence that I feel every time I take public transportations alone, living in Jacksonville, FL. we basically don’t really have access to public transportation. So taking the bus was a thing I am proud of. I don’t think anyone would ever understand that.  

The game was of course exhilaratingly fun. I enjoyed it very much even though I was alone. I got my “Gracias Manu” hat, my tissue (for the retirement ceremony) and a little poster thing that had Manu’s photos.

Although my seat was all the way to the top, it did not feel like I was watching ants play basketball. So my seat was high but I still felt like I was close enough to the players. I sat on the Spurs side, right in front of where Manu’s jersey was going to be hanged and retired. I also saw where Manu sat while watching the game (so close yet so far!). For the first half of the game, I was roaming around trying to take Manu photos at all the spots they had set up. All the championship trophies they won were right next to Manu’s backdrops. It was pretty cool. I was not able to take photos with all of them though but that’s ok. I was anxious to find a good souvenir and also to watch some of the game so I didn’t really feel like standing in the longer lines just to take photos with fake Manus.

The game was exciting. When I started watching it, it was the last couple of minutes of the 3rd quarter and the whole 4th quarter. It’s so exciting to be in a home game of your team. Mills scores a last minute 3 pointer that made the win for the Spurs apparent. He even said he did it for Manu, who really knows. The Spurs came a long way from where they were in the beginning of the season to where they are now. It’s kind of neat to witness their progress and actually seeing it in person. (They are going to the Playoff’s despite the odds not being in their favor in the beginning of the season, how amazing is that?)

The ceremony was to start after the game which kind of took me by surprised since the game was a late game. But it was fine, I just wanted to be there. The ceremony started 30 minutes after the game. I contemplated getting up and using the restroom, thankfully, I did! (Haha, just thought to put that out there.) The speeches were touching and I really thought I was going to cry but I didn’t. Manu is such an awesome player and he has great appreciation for his fans, colleagues and especially to his family. I admire that very much and I’m sure a lot of his fans do too.

After the game and ceremony, I set out to do another Uber venture. Share a Ride was set in Lot 5 of the Parking Lot which coming out from the doors by Row 125 will be on the far left, I mean far far left. I’ve been in that parking lot before but I still didn’t know where to go. I had to google it and follow some folks around to get to where they had pick ups set up. I think it was pretty organized but it still took my Uber awhile to get to me, maybe they could do better. I contemplated riding the bus back to my Hotel just because of how long it was taking for my Uber to reach me but who knows what was out there that late of the night, so I’m still glad I took Uber. Finally, my Uber ride got to me and I was able to get to my hotel safe and sound.

Well, that’s it for my 1st day in San Antonio. I decided to make this trip a two part blog. I was only there for two days but I have so much thoughts about my experiences that it became apparent to make it a two part blog!

I hope you enjoyed reading this blog as much as I enjoyed the actual trip and I hope this encourages you to go for one too, a SOLO TRIP!

How to be more consistent with yourself….

March 11, 2019: Today I felt refreshed, oh what a wonderful feeling.

I haven’t been myself lately and it completely took me off guard. I was super euphoric at some point and then bam I was kind of sad.

I want to study mental health more. I want to find out different ways to manage these kind of setbacks.

One of the things I keep hearing from my S.O., people I follow on IG, on YouTube and from people I admire and look up to is the word CONSISTENCY.

Oh you want to start a blog? a vlog? A business? You want to run faster and longer? The answer is consistency.

Being consistent just means showing up, doing what you said you’re going to do even on times you don’t feel like doing it. It’s fighting the curse of excuses and consistently winning over them.

In the beginning of this year, I set out to write something everyday, as much as I can. In the month of January, I was able to fulfill this goal. I wrote every night and I was able to post blogs and share them with my friends and my family. But then it got real. It got to the point where the thoughts I was writing were thoughts I did not feel comfortable enough to share, so I stopped. I was getting the gizz of it all. People were starting to follow me and at some point my page was visited more than 100 times. Why did I stop? I was so courageous and brave, I bought my domain and made my page official but then I stopped? Again, why did I stop? In the month of February, I barely wrote. I posted 2 entries on my page and didn’t share it with friends and family like I did on my other posts.

What stopped me? And what stops a lot of people from fulfilling their goals, their dreams and ultimately living the life they desire?

FEAR! For this question, Fear is the answer. A lot of the excuses that we make up are created to justify our fears. Fear of failing, fear of being ridiculed or not taken seriously, fear of judgment and many other forms of fear. Yes, fear comes in many forms and many times those fears create excuses that stop people from being consistent and firm with their plans and their ideas that ultimately prevents their consistency, leaving them stuck and afraid to move forward.

I set out to be braver this year round and my fear still got to me even with superb support system, being it my family, friends and most especially my S.O. I’ve never felt so supported and yet I still let fear hinder my consistency and most specially my growth.

Fear is truly one of the greatest enemy of consistency.

So how do you fight your fears to become more consistent with your words and your goals?

I have some ideas! I am willing to share them. They have been working for me for the past several weeks and I hope these ideas and concepts will help you be more consistent with achieving your goals:

  1. Knowing that fear is inevitable. With this in mind, I set myself up to success when I accept that fear will be present. I wonder and ponder on what might I be fearing to make up the excuses? My S.O. tells me, “don’t say you know when you really don’t.” You really have to dig deep sometimes. One of the things that helped me thru figuring out what I’m fearing is writing. I write the question, “why am I afraid of ________?” & then answer it. There are times where I would end up writing, “I don’t really fear this” at the end of my writing that leads me to realizing that the fear I have is not true and continue on to do what I set myself out to do.
  2. Lessening the pressure you put on yourself. I created a challenge to run 2 miles a day from February 11th to February 28th. I was fearful I would fail but one of the things that kept me going was reminding myself to not put so much pressure on myself. When I set up my run for the day, I quietly remind myself that “there’s no pressure & to do what I can.” Keeping that in mind put so much ease on my runs making my runs more enjoyable. I decided to share this journey on social media that ultimately led to Friends joining me on the challenge and they asked me what the rules were and I said, “No rules, No pressure.” I’ve been running for 32 days, as of March 14, 2019, way pass the time frame I had originally set out to do. I feel good and I don’t feel drained. My friends are super grateful and are happy they started the challenge too. If I had let fear set in and decided to not share my challenge, I probably wouldn’t have enjoyed it much and my friends wouldn’t have joined me. I set aside my fear of being ridiculed and my fear of failure. Setting them aside gave me the opportunity to share the joy of accomplishments with my friends and inspire people to be more active too. Not having the pressure I put on myself made myself more accountable and motivated.
  3. Be more organized. Try your best to be more organized, with your thoughts, your plans and whatever else is in your life. One night, I decided to create an online calendar, as my S.O. suggested {I talk to him a lot}. At first, I was stubborn and thought “No way!” but as soon as I started that calendar, a whole lot of thoughts and worries went out the window. I guess you carry these things on your mind too, the plans, the events, the commitments and many more. As I released these things to put on my calendar, my mind felt at ease, I don’t have to messed up things & I don’t have to miss any events. I can confidently plan, confidently think of other things, confidently focus on other things knowing that I am organized with my days. I also created tasked that I have been checking off each day that makes me feel accomplished vs it just being another day. Organizing can come in many forms too. The key idea of organizing is to have a clear path where your thoughts are not scattered and ultimately alleviate some of your fears of messing up or missing things, events or commitments.
  4. Trust yourself more. I remind myself this all the time. Part of my anxiety battles were brought about because of my self mistrust. For a while, I didn’t trust myself (at all). I’ve come a long way and realizing that Loving Yourself is Trusting Yourself changed my life {for not only the better but for the best}. Even if you fail, even if you make a mistake, even if people are against it, you have to trust that you did the best you could with whatever resources were presented and were available to you. We are all human, we are wired to fail & wired to overcome them too but when we let our fears fight our battles we really don’t get too far. Being brave and fearless can only happen if you give yourself the trust you deserve! Trust that your talented, Trust that you have something important and meaningful to say. Trust that you can inspire. Trust that you are a wonderful human being. Trust that you can overcome all your fears and Trust that you can be consistent with your plans. Just trust and believe in yourself.
  5. “Replace can’t with maybe.” by Alexi Pappas. There’s no other way to word this. I hear and read a lot about the idea that what you say and what you believe to be is actually what happens and what becomes of you. So every time I say things like “I’m not fast”, “I’m not a writer”, or “I can’t do this”, I replace them with more positive thoughts (when I catch it). I am more aware of the thoughts and words I say about myself. I remind myself of words like “not yet”, inspired by Charlie Rocket, to remind myself that there’s always opportunities for growth and even though it feels and seem unattainable, if you ignore those fears, there’s always a chance: a chance to grow, a chance to be faster, a chance to be better, a chance to be who you want yourself to be. So be inspired, follow people who started from where you think you are and witness them face their fears and fulfill the things you dream of to remind yourself that there is always a chance to “replace can’t with maybe.
  6. Another one that I [try to] do and would like to share is to celebrate every accomplishments. It doesn’t matter how small they are, those accomplishments are meant to be celebrated and be proud of. Small things could lead to big things. The little more that you do the closer you get to your goals, the BIG Things. I feel that by celebrating every accomplishments makes being consistent more enjoyable and less pressured. You finished a book, celebrate! You read 3 pages of a book, celebrate! Be grateful for yourself, for trying and for facing your fears! Celebrate yourself for getting up every morning and be grateful for being able to and being given the opportunity just to do something, anything. Celebrate the idea that you are capable and that you have all the opportunities in the world to do what you love you just have to face your fears!

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2019 The Players Donna 5k

March 2, 2019

2019 The Players Donna 5K.

Ah! This is one of my favorite races here in Jax,FL. It’s just a different atmosphere for me. Maybe because The Players has a special place in my heart since it’s one of my mom’s favorite places to be. She just gets super happy going there lol so I like the place.

When I first participated in this race in 2016, (I think it was 2016), the beginning days of my running adventures, I fell in love with the race. I haven’t done it since then (until this year, of course) but I really did love the race. The only thing that was  missing in 2016 was the race medal but even without the medal I would have still done this race this year because it has been a while and every year prior to this year I meant to sign up. This year was meant to be because I got to do it with both my sisters! I am happy that there is a medal this year too. I think the races after the 2016 race had medals, not sure, I wasn’t there, lol.

So anyways, this year’s race was moved to March versus May, which I am thankful for. I don’t mind running in the summer but having the nice weather to enjoy the race is a super PLUS! The course is so peaceful, to me, even though there are so many participants in the race. I am happy that the weather held up with the rain  until later on the day. It was cloudy and a bit chilly, yes, perfect running weather! I wore a tank top and some long pants and it was completely comfortable for me. So kudos to Jax Weather that day, I appreciate you, always!

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My sister said she was cold, while I was just wearing a tank top. lol

The parking lot for the event, was different from the last time I was at TPC, I should have looked at the instructions but I was being stubborn and said to myself, “I KNOW WHERE TO GO, I don’t need to look at the directions.” lol Well, good thing we were like an hour and half early coz I didn’t know where to go. Haha. So first lesson from this experience is to read the event’s instructions! Actually, I just read an article about the 2019 Tokyo Marathon today about how many people were mad that there was a cut off on the 10K mark and one guy was saying how it wasn’t on the fine prints but guess what buddy, it was! So yeah, super important to read the instructions especially in big events like that.

As we walked by the booths and all the free things lining up for us to grab and take! (I’m just trying to remember each moment, super moment by moment.) Each step leading up to the starting line was exciting, for me. I guess for anyone that don’t know me I get super excited a lot, so bear with me, let me tell you how and why it made me excited! First stop, free donuts, Mini Bar donuts, we didn’t grab any of these free things yet because Duh, we’re about to run. There’s some free coffee, free sunglasses, hand sanitizer, free hotdog sandwiches and some free drinks. It’s exciting that these are the things we got lining up for us after the race. (We did grab each one of them, maybe even two of each for some, after the race.) Those are just some of the perks of participating in these kind of events, so enjoy them when you can!

We were a bit early, my fault, I always think races are meant to be super early so I suggested leaving at 6:30 to be there by 7:00 AM. We had plenty of time to take photos and explore the surrounding areas of the starting line which was nice and very enjoyable.

As the runners line up, walkers on the grass and runners by the starting line, our initial thoughts were, “hmm doesn’t seem like there’s a lot of people here today.” But mistaken we were, when the guy told us “GO” we saw the lines of runners right in front of us! There were so many and the spaces where we can run was very limited. It was super crowded and everyone was pretty much shoulder to shoulder in the beginning of the race. To me, this was expected, so it didn’t disappoint and made me giddy and made the adrenaline rush thru me as I watched this massive group of people tackle the golf course.

The whole race, for me, was perfect and very very enjoyable. I will definitely do it again. So, if this blog makes you want to go to try out the race next year! I hope to see you there! ‘Til Next Time!

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Donna 5K Finisher, est 3.2.20219. <3

As always, thank you so much for reading my thoughts! To Da Loo!

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia

Maybe, you’d like to see the race in my perspective! Please watch my youtube video and enjoy! Like & Subscibe! 

My running journey, love journey and world journey is all posted on my IG too, follow me on my IG @piawiaventures! Thanks bunches! 

 

Thankful For Him <3

February 4, 2019

How am I feeling today? I feel happy.

That’s it. That’s how today is, feeling happy (& tired actually lol I’ve been up for a while).

So today Karl and I made it official. We are together. We are going to see where this relationship will take us. We will take it day by day. I am so happy.

This week has been so wonderful to me. His visit here in Jax has brought so much joy into my life that I’ve never felt before (all I meant is it’s a different kind of joy, not that I never felt joy).

Reasons being? The whole time Karl was here I was myself………….. There was no doubt in my mind that I am comfortable being around him and that is such a wonderful feeling. We’ve talked about things I never even talked about to anyone. I wasn’t afraid to tell him things people used to call me crazy, desperate for……………….. HE just let me be. He let me be myself freely and that is as in my previous passages, is the most wonderful thing to gift someone.

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Watching The Sunrise 1.29.2019

I want to remember each moment of this day… or the day leading up to this because it was just pass 12am or so when he asked me if we could make it official………….. That took me by surprise really…………………

It’s so sad sometimes to think that all these nice things that he’s doing for me was unexpected but it shouldn’t be unexpected, that is how things are supposed to be.

I was an hour late in our meet up plan because I was thinking he was going to be late or that he was stuck in his conference and was unable to let me know he was on his way……… You see, this is such a regular occurrence for me that I just grew accustomed to it (sadly)…. I’ve dated guys who made me wait 12 hours, I dated guys who nonchalantly tells me “oh sorry, I didn’t realized you were waiting.” I dated guys who just do their thing without regards to the time I spent waiting when I could have done something else…………… No total regards that my time is being wasted waiting for a text to tell me what’s going on…………………………. I learned to be chill in this moments of waiting…………………. And now I meet this guy who is punctual, who says what he means… He told me he would leave Miami by 12 and should be in Orlando by 3…. And silly silly me for thinking he’s going to text me when he leaves and let me know if he’s done with the conference……….. 2pm comes along no text…I’m still so Chill, “Aww he’s probably having a good time in the conference, but I’m ok here i’m spending time with D & D, maybe he doesn’t want to bother me either.” This mindset is kind of making me sad………….. Haha I am numb from people not respecting my time that that’s the kind of mindset I have while waiting on someone………… Karl actually didn’t realized that I was waiting for a text that he was coming because in his mind, I should have known he was on his way……………. Yes I know Him and I need to work on our communication but to be honest, there was nothing wrong with what he did. It was me………. I was so used to people taking my time for granted that that’s what I expected from him……………………………. It wasn’t until Destinie asked me if I was sure… that I should just text him and ask… so I did….. His response “Yes ETA 3PM” like we talked about………………… I was an hour away and was still at the restaurant…I’m just so touched and amused that this guy actually respected my time………….. He didn’t even go to the conference anymore coz he wouldn’t make it on time to meet me at 3pm………………………. Who does that? WHO FREAKIN DOES THAT? NO ONE EVER CARED TO MEET ME ON TIME IF THERE WAS SOMETHING ELSE THEY ARE DOING!!! NO ONE………………. That kind of person exist? That kind of person who thinks meeting me was important..……… HE put seeing me first before anything else……………………… & I was so used to people making me wait that I ended up making him wait………………………….. The whole 1 hour drive I had I was thinking of ways to apologize, my excuses… but I couldn’t come up with a good one. I couldn’t think of anything because he didn’t deserve that………………………….. I said sorry and he said “it’s okay, are you ready?” I set my things in our room and he hugs me. He hugs me so tightly as if all that mattered was that I was there, nothing else mattered………. There was no drama, no guilt tripping, no why what happened……….. He was just happy I was there………

This person exist? All I can think about was how can I repay him for all his kindness… all I can do is to appreciate him for who he is. To give thanks to all that he does……… to appreciate him…..

It makes me feel so sad writing this. I can’t believe that he’s so sweet and nice. That the kind of guy I used to dream about is here existing right before my eyes. We shared so many moments together in just those little times that we had, can you imagine having a lifetime of days like that? I want to believe that that kind of Love can exist for me for a lifetime…………. All I need to do is be grateful for each moments we have.. That’s it. Just need to be super grateful.

So as our afternoon continues, we go to see Orlando eye. I hug him as we walked…….. He offered his arms and I obliged whilst still hugging him. Haha I just couldn’t get enough about how freaking grateful I was!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT while in line to go to the Orlando Eye Ferris Wheel was “I LIKE THIS GUY so much” on repeat!

Well, as always, thank you so much for reading my thoughts. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Love always.

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia <3

 

February 4, 2019 <3

A Letter From Me To Younger Me <3

January 20, 2019

The power of self-love, got me craving for some me time!

I wanted to write something to younger me. I want to write her a letter, for all those lost & troubled times and for moments that younger me never felt loved. So, here it is:

Dearest Younger Me,

(A Letter Inspired by Alexi Pappas)

From the beginning of time, you have been given this journey to grow and learn. Hold on there! You are doing amazing and I am super proud of you. In this journey, you will learn all of the things I list below, yes, it seems far from true but one day you will learn to trust me too.

1. When given a chance, always choose to see the Sunrise…

Sunrise (& Sunsets) are always beautiful and every single one of them will remind you how truly blessed you are & starting over is not such a bad thing.

2. Never doubt yourself, better yet, never let others put doubts in your head…

In life, negativity is a given thing, power thru them anyways. You are far more powerful than the negativity that will come your way.

3. Believe in who you are…

Learn to love yourself for exactly who you are. Remember that the world is a better place because you are in it! <3

4. Love is always the answer..

When fear comes along, remember to always choose the path of love and it will lead you to the right place.

5. Forgiveness is the key to a loving heart, always choose it & choose it fast…. 

Forgiveness is hard but also the most important thing to learn! Let go of what if & what’s not. Let the joy of accepting what is come into your life.

6. You’ll feel like you’ll need to prove yourself to people, Don’t.

Always choose to be brave, say what you feel, say what you mean and let your inner guide lead you… It will never let you go astray……

7. Always be in a place where self-love can exist for you…

Avoid places, people and situations that doesn’t feel like love… if you ever find yourself in these places, you can always leave and that is completely ok! Always choose what is truly good for you!

8. The YOU now is just as deserving as the better you you are waiting for…..

No need to wait to feel worthy, you are always worthy, remember that always!

9. Focus on what is best for you, and the rest will follow…………..

Your main goal in this life is to be happy, so be that, do only things that make you happy and don’t let anyone distract you from achieving true happiness……. & If you do get distracted it’s ok, let it go, forgive yourself & choose again. 

~Always Choose Love Over Fear!~

Yours Truly Yours,

Piawia!

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Est. 1.19.2019 “Training is like building a sandcastle. Each grain of sand is important, even if you can’t see them all”
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Sunset ~ Est. 1.19.2019
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Sunrise ~ Est. 1.20.2019
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Sunrise ~ Est. 1.20.2019
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Sunrise ~ Est. 1.19.2019

 

I Choose Love Over Fear <3

January 9, 2019

I lost track of where I was, I’m looking around for my inner peace and frantically looking for a way to look at things with love.

Trust that you are on the right path.

My insecurities revealed itself a little bit today but for reasons that I inflicted myself (onto myself). I even thought that maybe I need a drink to type and write this so I could be more real and raw (but I didn’t). I had a whole page of things on here but decided to delete the whole thing. I think this marks the very first day in 2019 history that I am writing with a frantic heart. It feels heavy as though it shouldn’t be here, because it really shouldn’t. I want to be real and I want to be brave so brave I will be. (Always be #bravey)

What triggered my insecurities? You ask… It’s a put together guy. A man who has his life (to what seems like) figured out. I knew going thru my self-love journey that I am meant to meet people just like him because that’s a sign that I am doing something good with myself. See, I knew this was coming and yet the minute we hang up that phone all I wanted to do was run! My life started to seem uneventful and unfulfilling, maybe this is exactly what I needed. I reached out to the Holy Spirit to guide me thru this because my insecurities are not getting in the way of me getting to know someone who shares the same interests as me, someone who can potentially make a great positive impact in my life.

So this is what it’s like to get to know someone when you’re doing so great inside. As the Course in Miracles points out, the Universe will challenge you on your journey. The Universe or God Himself will bring people in your life that will challenge your being until you learn the lesson you need to learn. In this case, my lesson (it has always been) is to see myself in the LIGHT instead of the DARK. My lesson is to figure out a way to channel my inner peace on times when it seems like it is being shaken (by my own self). My lesson is to not run away and enjoy the moments for what it truly is. 

Continue reading I Choose Love Over Fear <3

Aftermath of my First Marathon

October 7, 2018

I did it, (I did something incredible) I finished one of the World Major Marathons, the Bank of America Chicago Marathon 2018. 

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My fave mantra: “Stay” – just enjoying each run moment by moment.

Honest to God, becoming a MARATHONER was one of the best feeling of my life, seeing that finish line was just pure amazing! I couldn’t believe I was able to reach my goal. I knew I was made for long distance running, even before, I just couldn’t fathom the fact of running for a long period of time. CRAZY SH*TS. 

My mindset about running (and life in general) changed so much. I’ve come a long way mentally and I am super proud of who I became. I became this person who believes in herself and someone who works really hard to love herself. {That’s a good thing, and you should be proud of yourself for striving for the best version of yourself} 

This marathon journey taught me so much about my strengths and weaknesses, what I love, things I want to be surrounded with, being alone & accepting other people’s helping hand without feeling like a failure. I learned to give thanks for everything that is around me and everything that is given to me, provided for me, I became the most Thankful and Grateful person I never thought I could be and that’s one of the things I love about myself! Ha. You’re probably like, who’s this girl who’s just talking about how much she loves herself? That’s totally fine! I just want to inspire people to start loving themselves too. To start accepting themselves for who, where and what they (we) are! 

The marathon was just a stepping stone for me. The morning of the race I woke up feeling prepared, excited, anxious and also very grateful for the journey. I learned that just being able to run is something to be grateful for already despite of results or anything else that could happen. The fact that I was given an opportunity to be where I was, was already something to be (SUPER) grateful for. My mind was really calm (well, until I realized I might be late, then I started panicking a little bit) but all together, there was no doubt in my mind that I could finish. It was already set in stone for me that I will finish. I was more worried about not making it on time, but I made it with 45 minutes to spare 🙂 How incredible is that? My time {for my first marathon} is 5:45:54 which is an incredible feeling. Before I took training seriously, I was running 15-16 minutes per mile {only because I lost touch with running for a while}. In those weeks, I was running my slowest, I even thought of quitting, but quitting was not an option. When I decided not to quit, it was more because I didn’t want to have to think about the marathon for another LONG YEAR! I’ve put some things on HOLD to be able to do this and I didn’t really want to do it again. After a while though, the reason for this run journey shifted to because I BELIEVE I CAN! {If you want to know how I did that just message me or I’ll write another blog about that shift, IDK, I’m playing this by ear and just writing away my thoughts about the marathon and what I had become after it} 

The shift in my mindset helped me through training and eliminated a whole lot of doubts (instead of doubting the whole journey, I only doubted a little bit, ha! It was a shift from 90% of doubt to 10%).  Now, after this Marathon journey, I believe in myself more. I know I can accomplish a lot of things I set my mind to. It taught me to focus on myself, to love myself and to believe in myself. It taught me that there are no set backs that can ever prevent you from reaching a GOAL you truly believe in. 

This journey changed my views in life and I want to be able to share that with people because it’s an amazing feeling. I hope that this inspires you and your friends, your family and anyone who ever doubted themselves. I was a self doubter, a self downer, someone who waited for people to believe in herself. Someone who cared about why people doubted her and someone who didn’t think she could accomplish big things and yet here I am 26.2 MILES STRONGER than any of those doubts. Don’t ever ever lose hope and faith in yourself because no one else can believe in yourself as strong as YOU CAN BELIEVE in yourself. 

So, that is the aftermath of my marathon journey, this running journey has taught me so much about my strength and how I reached a goal I never thought I could. KEEP BELIEVING and as the first time Marathoner OLYMPIAN, Alexi Pappas said: “Replace Can’t with Maybe” and you will reach goals you never thought you could! Always Be Brave, BRAVEY! 🙂 

Thank you for taking your time in reading this fantastic & amazing journey of mine. 

Follow my SELF LOVE Journey on IG @piawiaventures. 🙂

PEACE, LOVE & GRATITUDE. 

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Thankful for my legs & feet, my whole body, always.

With LOVE Always, 

Pia, 

the Marathoner

(my running name is MARIA, by the way)

Wearing my medal in the Atlanta Airport
Coz I can. #MedalMonday